A Blooming Transformation.
In mind, body, and soul.
Well, I’m back from hibernation…almost. I still have one more trip to Mexico before I get into hustle mode both in work and life.
Colombia changed my life. Changed me. Cliche right? I know. But it’s true.
Most people don’t know the extent of emotional and mental trauma I have endured the last few years, but some do. I know we all have our own demons and challenges in life and we become aware and process them in our own time. I, unfortunately, let my demons destroy me in many ways, to the point that I lost part of myself, part of my soul.
I’m sharing this information with you because of the personal transformation I have experienced in Colombia and by taking this much needed mental break from work to focus on myself and my soul. To learn to put myself first again.
This last chapter of my life, basically since the beginning of the plandemic, has been both the best and worst time of my life. There were many amazing moments, but also some of the most traumatic experiences I’ve ever had to go through; a car accident, a tumultuous relationship, crazy career shifts, and many holistic health issues. My energy had drained and I was at one of my lowest points in life.
For the past year, I have been doing my best to heal from those traumas. To break myself out of the habits and patterns that were keeping me emotionally run down and mentally drained. To heal my body from the pain and discomfort. To regain the part of my soul that I lost by giving too much of myself and my power away.
And to do that, I needed to put myself first. I quit jobs, cut people out of my life, and put up boundaries to protect my energy again. I started smiling and complimenting myself every day and cleaned up my diet. I did my best to fill my heart with happiness and did so with meditation, gratitude, and trying to envision a life I wanted. I started feeling my body more, with dance, yoga, and stretching and I began spending more time with my horse.
By the time 2024 came around, I had forgiven my past. The people who were involved in the drama, the situations that had happened, and myself too, for keeping myself in that energy for far too long. And although I had forgiven everything, I still hadn’t completely healed. Until now.
A Trip of A Lifetime.
Coming back from Colombia, I feel like I have finally finished this dramatic chapter and closed the book on that part of my life, and I’m happy. Like, really happy. I feel healed from my past, I’ve slowed down to enjoy the present moment, and I can finally visualize the future I want again.
All of the things I thought I wanted (but didn’t deep down) have shifted or fallen away. It is no longer part of my reality. I realized, while I was away, that I truly want a simple, peaceful life. I want to be happy and healthy, do the things I love to do, spend time with the people I love, and not overthink and stress myself out into a life that I thought I “should” strive for. I’m going back to the dreams I had as a little girl, and I couldn’t be happier about that.
People had mentioned to me that Palomino, Colombia was like an energy vortex because of the frequencies of the Sierra Nevada mountains and the Caribbean Ocean, and that it would rid the demons and darker energy that people struggle with. That it would take those energies, transmute them, and you would come out of there feeling transformed. I booked the trip without knowing that, which is just one more reason why I know I was divinely guided on this journey.
So here’s a little bit about the transformation I experienced, and how I will be transforming Blooming Euphoria to match this new version of me and this new beginning that I am creating for myself.
My Dreams
All my life, I have loved writing, reading, teaching, dance, horses, and energy. Even as a little girl I could write fairly well, and I was reading chapter books by the time I was 6-years-old. I wrote my first speech in grade 4, which I was chosen to present on stage in front of the entire school…it was about horses. Surprise, surprise.
I read books almost every night, and would ask my little sister if I could read them to her as well, most of the time pretending to be a “teacher”. One summer, as a teenager, I read 30 books in 2 months! I could always picture myself as a writer one day, sitting in a little window nook, looking outside at a rainy, cloudy day, pen in hand.
In Colombia, I wrote in my journal almost every day and read a powerful book that inspired and encouraged me to pay attention to what I wanted to do for work in my life. For me. What would fulfill me so that I wouldn’t always want something more or different. A real purpose that aligned with my soul and would keep me at peace. And the Universe gave me my answers by reminding me of my passions.
Writing.
I love to write. It is built into me. And on this trip, I realized how much I need it for my own healing and in my own life. It is a tool that helps me process my emotions and it’s how I express my raw self and creativity.
My blog posts up until now have felt somewhat pressured. By me. I put so much pressure on myself that I was turned off of writing or would put it off. Yes, the words I write are usually channeled or can flow through me easily, but there was always a feeling of obligation and force that I must write about a certain topic.
No more. I know now that I need to write from the heart and be more authentic and raw rather than focusing on educating or teaching something specific. I need to let it flow even more.
I also got my sign to finally write my book!
After reading Paulo Coelho’s, “The Witch of Portobello”, I read the Q&A for the author in the back of the book. There was a question about how he knows when to write another book and his answer was, “…every second year, in January, I need to see a white feather. And the day that I see I start writing.”
I thought that was a cool way to receive the message to write, especially since white feathers are reminders of angels and I see them quite often at home.
So, the next day, I’m sitting by the pool at my hostel, and out of nowhere, a teeny tiny white feather slowly, and wistfully, falls from the blue sky and lands right in front of me. My mouth dropped open. No…way…I thought to myself. And I laughed out loud. It wasn’t January, but it sure felt like a message to write a book, haha.
Intuitive Healing.
When I was a little girl and my stomach was upset (which was quite often), I would intuitively put my hand on my tummy, feeling the energy transfer from my hand, and I would feel better within moments. This too, is built into me. I have done, and continue to do, energy work on myself all the time and I know that this is part of my purpose in life, to do for others as well.
All my life, I have been in tune psychically in one way or another, whether it was through dreams, reading minds, or just simply picking up on the energy in a room. I’ve also had premonitions, intuitive downloads, and I channel through my writing.
While I was in Colombia, many people asked what I did for work and I told them I do Reiki and Reflexology. The looks on people’s faces when I told them shocked me! They were so interested and curious about these healing arts and wanted to hear more about them.
One day, in the pool, I was doing my best to speak Spanish to the other guests at the hostel and they were doing their best to speak English. One of the ladies told another lady that I do some sort of energy massage and volunteered me to work on her because she was in pain. So, of course, I confirmed that I would! Because part of my purpose is to help others feel better with my hands. I didn’t hesitate.
My message here was to continue doing the hands on healing work with people, but also to develop my intuitive skills when it comes to reading energy.
Horses.
Horses have been in my life since I have had memory, but I have been involved with them on a serious level for 23 years. I have always dreamed of having a barn, more horses, and teaching or training on horseback (in my backyard) and I somehow lost that dream when I moved to Calgary.
I feel reconnected to it now and I am pursuing my riding instructor certification that I started 10 years ago! I’ve also made goals for myself as a rider and plan on getting back into the dressage ring. Horses are an important piece of my life that I let go to the wayside and I know it’s time to be more involved again. It just feels right, and I trust that I was veered off this course for a reason only to come back to it with more commitment now.
While in Colombia, the thought of horses and what I was planning on doing when I got back home gave me a sense of grounding. It also created a spark within me and put a smile on my face every time I thought of my horse or horses in general. I channeled that feeling quite often when I was there and it continued to remind me of my dreams.
Dance.
I remember being 4-years-old and dancing on the coffee table (yes, that’s pretty young to be dancing on tables, haha) in our music room to the live music that my Dad and all his friends were jammin’. I grew up with music being a huge part of my life and it was always a dream to take dance classes. Unfortunately, we could only afford one hobby at a time when I was a kid, so I naturally chose horses.
Even though I couldn’t take lessons, dance has always been a part of my private life at home. As a kid, I would get together with friends and we would create choreographs to all kinds of songs and sometimes even perform them in front of our families! I even had a dance group called “The Groovy Green Girls” with one childhood friend, and we handmade our dance costumes.
As an adult, I kept that creativity with me, except I would do it alone. Some days, I would come home, put on some good music, get stoned, and move my body. I would tune into the music and feel it inside of me. Dancing like this was one way that I could release tension and discomfort in my body to feel better. It was healing.
Last year, I joined a dance team of wonderful ladies and my body has healed in ways I can’t explain. It pushes me to move in ways I normally wouldn’t and find the areas in my body that need to be worked on. It is also a way for me to get in touch with my feminine side and express my soul, as much as it is a challenge for me to pop out of my shell and do it in public!
When I was growing up, watching “Dancing With the Stars”, I told my Mum and myself that I wanted to be a salsa dancer one day. Just as I have intentionally manifested many, many things in my life, this was another dream that came true. I have been dancing for almost five years (casually, by no means professionally) and got to experience salsa dancing in Colombia. It was a pretty amazing experience.
I know I want to continue to grow and learn in this art because of how it challenges me in my confidence and my physical health. I don’t know where this part of my journey will take me but I know it is an important part of my life.
What does this mean for Blooming Euphoria?
This time to myself was specifically to help me slow..myself..down so that I could heal my thoughts and emotions and gain more clarity on what I truly wanted in my life. Without any sort of outside influences.
Not only did I gain clarity about the work I wanted to focus on now that I’m done school, I gained an inner peace that I’ve never felt before. And I think it’s because I have my whole self back again. I found that missing part of my soul, the part most in touch with Creator, and the part that allows me to create with more intention and passion. The part of me that smiles at all the wonderful little things in life.
I truly feel healed and happy. As for Blooming Euphoria, I know I want to focus on writing, using my healing hands, and horses.
Now for the next chapter of my life…
Lots of Love & Light,
Jessica Rose